LATELY : 02

What I've been up to lately - A Beautiful Retreat What I've been up to lately - house styling

What I've been up to lately - tests

ONE Last weekend was magical. 12 creative ladies, including myself, escaped to the woods of southern Tennessee for a weekend surrounded by nature, wilderness and beauty filled with intention and connection. We slept in beautiful rustic yet modern cabins, went for hikes in lush trails with bridges and bluffs, we shared stories about paving our own path, we laughed, we broke bread, we danced under the stars, we celebrated our ambition and accomplishments and we simply breathed. Words can't describe how amazing and life-giving last weekend was, only images tied with poems and quotes have done it justice. See more on our Instagram and #ABeautifulRetreat. More pictures and reflections coming soon.

TWO The past few months Nick and I have been working diligently to reorganize our home, clean it spotless, decorate and style perfectly in order to receive the best appraisal we could in order to purchase it. You see, the house we live in we rented first. We moved to Nashville about a year ago into this beautiful home, then just a few months ago we realized we wanted to purchase it. The process of purchasing a home unfolded, including paper work, on top of paper work, on top of cleaning, appraisal appointments, inspections appointments, realtor appointments and endless things to gather and sign. This process has been extremely draining and much more work than I could have imagined. Gratefully, we officially purchased our home almost 2 weeks ago and got through all of the legalities and paperwork! Now into repairing the home...

THREE Since enduring my second miscarriage in July, a host of tests to understand why my pregnancies have not been viable have ensued. Almost monthly I have my blood drawn to test for one thing or another. Then a few weeks ago, amidst purchasing our home, I had a more intense test called a Hysterosalpingogram. This is where they inject dye into my uterus to show whether my fallopian tubes are open or blocked, whether a blockage is at the junction of the tube and uterus or if there is any normalities whatsoever. I'm happy to say everything was normal, but not so happy to admit that this test was very discomforting and unpleasant. Yesterday I had another blood test which should conclude the blood tests for now. In a few weeks I see an acupuncturist specializing in fertility and my OB to go over all of my test results. There are is so much to learn about miscarriage and having a successful pregnancy that I find myself taking notes, google searching random thoughts about it online and bookmarking articles. It's difficult to put everything together on something that still has so many mysteries. But my desire, determination and hope will keep me moving forward to find answers and a plan.

 

Center photo by Ruby & Peach

BREATHE

Breathe The past several weeks, even the last few months, have been f u l l.

Full of...

  • appointment, meetings, cleaning and prepping for our home to be appraised and inspected in order for us to purchase our current home
  • connecting with Nashville creatives and intention on building a community
  • planning and leading my first all woman's retreat in the woods of Winchester, TN (in just a few weeks!)
  • collaborations and new projects
  • exploring painting and creating abstract art
  • bringing on my talented intern and in-house photographer
  • planning out my new business, brand and services

On top of these exciting and inspiring things, unexpected turns come up too. Like enduring my second miscarriage and testing on why it happened, anticipating a serious test regarding my mother's health and caring for my husband's unplanned surgery.

So many feelings of gratitude, clarity, excitement mixed with overwhelm, concern and anxiety come and go.

I don't know if things will ever get lighter or less busy as I grow. But I do know that reminding myself to breathe, to listen to my heart, to talk about my feelings and to follow my dreams has me balanced and pushing on.

Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure. - Oprah Winfrey

This blog is still a place I love to visit to share my knowledge, dreams and latest creations on. But as I push through a full and wildly productive moment in my life, you can find more current updates on me on my Instagram.

 

Photo by my girl Allison