KEEP LOOKING FOR A MEANING

I am uncertain of where I'm going.

I look back on my accomplishments and the path I've traveled and it's crystal clear. But ahead there is no path, everything is uncertain, unpaved, unclear.

The moment I finally think I found my calling, my purpose, the thing I was born to do, my mind boils over with uncertainty and dreams of other endeavors to pursue.

Does this mean I'm on the wrong path, did I get lost somewhere along the way?  Have I found or experienced my Personal Legend but somehow overlooked it?

These questions have been consuming my mind leaving me paralyzed to move forward. As if I've come to a fork in the road and I must choose which direction I'm going.

I don't have answers, nor do I have tips for you to follow because this is my current status - I'm still figuring it out.  What I do know is reading books like The Alchemist (for the third time) and going through the Warrior of the Light manual that accompanies it, has helped me find peace.

You can recognize a Warrior of Light by the look in his eye. Warriors of Light are in the world, they form part of the world, and they were sent into the world without saddlebags or sandals. They are often cowardly. They do not always act correctly.

Warriors of Light are wounded by the most foolish things, they worry about trivialities, they believe themselves incapable of growing. Warriors of Light sometimes believe themselves unworthy of any blessing or miracle.

Warriors of Light often ask themselves what they are doing here. Often they find their lives meaningless.

That is why they are Warriors of Light. Because they fail. Because they ask questions. Because they keep looking for a meaning. And in the end, they will find it.